I am a firm believer in doing things that make you happy; that make you feel good. I've been wanting to start blogging for a while but never took the time for myself to do so. Well, no better time than now! I feel like I have so much to say, so much to share, so many emotions/passions/feelings that are dying to be expressed. Having become a mother of a Dup15q AND autistic son, I am in need of an outlet:
2013 was a pretty intense year. We sold our first home (our baby), and it sold TOO quickly for my comfort. I felt like I had just begun making good friends in Patterson, then I decided to up and move? That's typically my MO. It's the crazy gypsy whispering in my ear I suppose. Little did I know at the time how beneficial it would be to our family to move. (Although, there are still times I do miss Patterson, and the MOMs Club). House hunting in the Brentwood area was an extremely humbling experience. I am a better, wiser, person for it.
Then there's AJ. My super sweet son who was diagnosed with a duplicated 15th chromosome in April, then diagnosed with autism about six months later. BAM. How do you process that? How do you recover? Well, you don't. You just keep going because you have no other choice. You wake up each day, plaster on your smile, and dry your tears before your child can see them. I really had no idea how strong a mother/wife I could be, until I had to be. Most often it is my husband who is weeping while I read aloud the most current evaluation of our son. He turns to me for comfort and simultaneously I turn to be comforted too, but when I turn, I see no one. Who's shoulder do I cry on when I'm "the shoulder" in our family?
I'd like to shake 2013 off my leg like you would a mounting dog...Unfortunately, that's not how it works. I cant shake this. This is my life. So, I welcome you 2014!
